Through the smoke

Through the smoke by my side I see

Through the window of someone else’s opportunity

The circles in the air

All floating high and fair

I breathe in and they disappear

Warm clouds of gray

Come and go as I stay

With a notion of knowing this moment

Is no more and no less

Without a flare

Through the smoke I see what’s there

So I sit and travel my thoughts

With a smoky friend in hand

Slow notions of the past

Bring me to know me

Through the smoke I blend

The then the now and what will be.

Through the blows of smoke I can be free.

1.31.2006

today I thought of..

Cold steel in my hole of nurture

Setting an example to the white soldiers

Here you must stand rooted and numb

Like the giraffe and the ant sees

The difference in power and stance

I too can feel

May the nature prevail

When steel is part of who we are

Made by nature

And perfected by the soul of pain

Why not return to the forms

Of the very state of mind

Where pain is no where to be found

And where the invention does not

Conquer the natural

And by so co-existing

They flourish and go on

Endlessly.

1.26.06

Written for "Brokeback Mountain"

Man to man

I know not why I possess the nature in me

To cling to you while God must have cussed me

All the books I read tell me it is a sin

My heart tells me this is the way it ought to be

I live haunted by images of people who can't see

I pray one day this will be the only truth to be known

What heart wants heart gets minus the gold

Within the walls of my room my thoughts circulate

They are there even though I am long gone to another state

You are in my room

You have always been there

Before I knew you and now after the world has shown

Us separate ways to lead

For me the heavens know not much more than I do now

All you are and all you ever be in my mind

Is the half I miss when I wake up next to my wife

1.24.06

Dheeeeeesiireeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Scratch an itch I plea
Why not hear me please
Sensual and great you would be
I see in your eyes, they emerge out of sea of passion
I feel it in your touch, which can be as smooth as
Mink’s tail
I hear it in your voice
More of a desire tunnel I enter
Each time, every moment I crave
From my mouth’s moan to the
Curve in my spine I so boldly hold
Bear the silk along my thighs
Cram the space between my eyes
Tear my flesh
Glue my heart
Onto the floor and beyond.

Is it?

I don’t want to dazzle you with my wits,

I am not pursuing your admiration,

I desire not to get your attention by my charm,

Needless to say my looks are fine, yet don’t wish for your mind to combine,

I crave for you to know whom I am inside,

To lay my character down,

For you to accept my flaws and be rejoiced with my talents,

I need you to be aware of the whole me myself and I.

Is that too much?

Today, this nite my thoughts go to you...

DID YOU?

Did you ever think you would spoon with another?

Did you ever crave the touch of my hand before you and I ever met?

Did you feel it in your dream while I was away?

Did you think you’d be mesmerized by a simple stare?

In the depths of your soul, did you sense the day you found love would come this soon

If not today you yearn for, will tomorrow suffice?

How incredibly addicting are lips of your love, please do tell, as I am yet to know a notion as such

I want to spread across the morning sky when the colors are bright beams of light

Did you ever deem to be helpless, afraid and still due to another’s presence?

You do not need to reply, speak or smile…I feel it inside

I feel you when you are not around, I hear you when you are not speaking

Do you know why?

Long after your fingers are gone I feel you sliding their tips down my spine

Sensation lingers for hours and our till our fingers meet again, hand in hand and side by side

You can leave today and I will not be able to cast a single vote to dispel

Written for .... on 6.30.03

Missing my friend, thoughts of Daud

Through the rain

I saw your hands rise

Through the nights

I heard your cries

Through the thunder

I recognized the doubling beat of your heart

Through the moonlight

I realized the healing kind you are

No meeting between you and I

Has been un-profound

All our talks have geared new thoughts and directions

Truth has always been by our side

Through the rain

I knew you were humble

Following the tear sliding down your cheek

Reaching your fingertips

Through the water shed

Through the sun and with the ever fair

Through you I learned much anew

Through the rain

I appreciate you.

For Daud from and by Lucie

10/29/04

For Maly's picture

Wings of might

Take me far away

Allow me

To be a million and one clouds

Glancing over the longest of rivers,

The highest of mountains,

The deepest of valleys, and further.

Let me be the witness to humanity

Let the wind guide my journey

I wish for my wings to spread

Become colossal

I’d grant you the same freedom

My friend

So you could share my vision

My flight

New dark yellow dunes border an old oasis

I fly over these dunes

To give good news to the approaching caravan

My wings

My pride

My f.light

My kind

My way of knowing by spreading

My wings

My flight

1.4.06 By Lucie T. for decorating Maly’s picture of eagles

given to me for xmas 2005.

One less

Tonite I slept knowing one less

Today seeing a whim of the old self

Rested knowing both and none

Thoughts whirled though my very being

They linger on today and the day after

Is it anguish I wonder?

Can I exist one less?

Knowing them both

High sigh

Decision approaches

The street light on my block.